Oh valentines day. I'am very much anti New Smokes way too much lady. She wont help customers just does stuff in the back and goes for a cigarette break. It really really makes me hate that I'm a smoker.
So it looks like we will be moving and Brice/darrin will be our neighbors. I have no money to move at all. I really dont know what I'm gonna do. I'm allready in debt to traber. I'm gonna have to give her my tax refund and sell my body to pay her back. Next bill for school is $500. But this new house is sunnier, has a dishwasher, no mice (I hope), we will have a new room-mate which could be a plus, bigger, cheaper, and a back yard. Oh and its a street over from the house I'm allready at. It could be good..
So whats new you ask. Here are a few things I've been doing... School. I come to realize that I'm going to have to work harder than everyone else to maintain a B+ average. Which means studying all the time. I haven't got to my studying goal but now that I'm in week three and have almost all my books I really don't have an excuse. I started writing letters to old friends. One being a post card to David the boy who whisked me away to Dimondhead Mississippi for two whole hellish days. I thought I would be stuck there forever. But we had fun listening to punk records. I think my fondest memories are of people playing music for me in a way of inspiration. Like this record is amazing I really want you to hear it. Not only is it exciting to hear new music but also the fact that someone is showing me something that they love. Although I don't feel like hanging out at home all the time and actually want to hang out with my friends, school is kinda leaving very little time for it. So I'm leaving most activity for the weekends. I think if an awesome show falls on a week-day I'll only go if I have all my work done. I have been playing guitar and feeling a bit of not really wanting to actually write material. I listened to tragic girl song the other day and it was just aweful. I definitely dont want to sing again. Not for a while anyway. I'm not even sure if being in a band is worth it anymore. And that was always my big dream aside from a million other things. I always have these snip-its of songs in my head and no way to write them b/c I don't really play guitar well. So I guess what I'm saying is I want to learn guitar and play well before moving on. One of my downfalls was I never could write a song with the band I was in or say anything b/c I couldn't really express it. There for I had less power or involvement. Being a vocalist is a good thing and words can be powerful. Yet, if the musics not good then what does it matter right? So back to studing "S". I want to be as good as Jen Ghetto. If not better. I can see how her new album "Puking and Crying" is good and how it could of been way better. I've also got this awful chest cold. I should not be smoking but I smoked today. So all I can say is tomorrow is a new day.
First day of school was today and it was excellent. The only thing that sucked was all my classes are back to back so by my last class I'm starving and I dont give a fuck. The bus was quick, surprising. Books wont cost as much as I thought, so thats great. the end
ah yes, food poisoning. Nothing like having a lovely evening alone, eatting hummus and watching sex in the city when all of a sudden my stomach cramps up and I feel like puking. It was aweful and what sucked was being alone. Even if my boyfriend was home he wouldn't know what to do for a sick human being. His motherly instint was replaced with large doses of goofy-ness. At least I didn't get on that bus to see a very long engagement at canal place. That would of been worse. So durring the long night of being sick with classic food poisoning symptoms I promised myself that I would take way better care of myself I even imagined myself eatting tofu out of the container not prepared in anyway. I wont go that far though.